Dead silence

After everyone left and you find yourself alone, the reality of what just happened hits you. Being busy with preparing a funeral and all didn’t give you the chance to actually come to terms with the loss, but when everything’s done and everybody went back to their lives, reality stops. Everything around you stops. Time….

When was a time when you thought you were going to die?

I’ve been through accidents, but not quite life-threatening. The most serious one happened when I was on my first trip to Italy. I was traveling by bus with my whole family and it happened on the first out of the two nights on the road. I was by the window, my father was next to…

How I make myself feel better when I get tired of life

I often complained about how exhausted I felt in my previous job, how much working with people drained me of every bit of energy and the will of being alive. I felt so overwhelmed, that during the weekends I would shut myself inside the house and refused to see another human being until Monday. Having…

Under the blues

Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with every day. Then there is the kind of pain you can’t ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all…

Real or not real – that is the question

The eyes are slowly shutting; they place themselves somewhere between the worlds. Those lost, long forgotten, fermented dreams begin to boil, leaving sulfur trails behind them. It burns the skin, the bones, it tears off the skull. The blood evaporates. Nothing is left behind, nothing survives the storm unleashed by these volcanic images that refuse…