Hello. How are you feeling today? What was the first thought that popped into your head when you woke up this morning? It’s the middle of the week, but are you already waiting for the weekend?
I woke up wondering who I am, what do I want from myself today, what do I need to feel fulfilled? Is it having more money? – well, that would definitely help, with no job and all 😀 –
Now I have enough time to search for the things that bring me joy, to explore my inner desires and discover if what I want is in alignment with who I am. When I had a full time job I felt too exhausted to even think about it, let alone do something about it. Do you find yourself in this situation too?
My biggest mistake was not prioritizing my needs.
I felt a constant anxiety and sadness building up day by day and I couldn’t figure out why. More than 80% of the time I was tired, bored, undriven. I suffered because I was not living the life I valued. I was just playing a role and the more I drifted away from who I was the more I suffered.
I learned that, no matter how busy, you should always take the time to see who you really are, what is important to you, what do you value the most. We live by a check-list and we got used to this pattern, always trying to achieve more, always unsatisfied. After taking some space for myself I realized I like living at a slow pace; no pressure, no expectations, just the things flowing naturally. I struggled with always rushing, following a tight schedule, always pleasing those around me. I directed all of my energy towards others and I had nothing left for me.
If I asked you what do you value, what would your answer be?
You might say you value your family, but, maybe, when you look closely you notice that you don’t actually spend time with them. You might say health, yet you don’t make time to exercise or have a better diet. So, what’s important to you and how you act just doesn’t match. When you are not in alignment, you suffer.
Look at how’s your life in this moment. Reassess your values and get it to match your life style. Begin to make adjustments, slowly. See what works and what doesn’t. If it doesn’t feel good, stop it. No more bad habits; make better habits. Train your mind and get some clarity, shift perspectives.
Think about what others expect of you. How important is it for you to please them? Does it bring you happiness?
Think about who do you fantasize yourself being. Are your fantasies in alignment with yourself? I used to fantasize myself as a successful actress, when my true nature is actually shy. I’m not even able to hold a discourse in front of my friends.
Then, think about who you really are. See yourself as you are, see your situation as it is, see those around you as they are. Discover your true values; explore.
Start living a life that is in alignment. Be aware that inside of you is a nature that needs to be known. Accept that the way you’re designed is OK.
Let’s take this journey together. You don’t have to do it alone if you don’t want to.