Craving

Sometimes I feel like a parasite, clinging to you, draining you, eating you alive from the inside out. Piercing your flesh with my claws, digging into your chest, I’m like a wild animal feeding with the most exquisite prey ever to exist.  Your taste makes me go into a frenzy. I see you bleeding but…

Lost in space

Forced to fake it, I forgot how it is to be honest about myself. I don’t want to go outside, but I must go to work everyday, deal with a dozen of people daily and I have to be nice and smile because I just have to. People respond good to smiles. And I’ve lost…

Autumn leaf

I’ve become my own prison, confined inside a monstruos mind. It tires me out even to breath. I’m being held captive between these four walls by my own self. I draw arrows pointing down my wrist, but I won’t taste the blood. Everything seems so sad. How the trees are losing their leaves, how they…

what if…

I wonder how is it to have your memory erased… Would this make life easier? What if I could stop myself from getting old? What if I could stop bleeding? What if I jumped that day? What if I trusted you more? What if I didn’t hide myself? What if I didn’t meet you? What…

“Still can’t find what keeps me here”

Is it enough to just be alive? Isn’t it pointless to keep pretending? What difference does it make to continue breathing if all that I have inside is a catacomb full of dry bones?  I feel so weak, as if nothing is within my power. Not even my own life. I am forced to accept…

Noise

Restless heart,  restless mind, I’m tired of wasting, wasting, All of my precious time… (Whitesnake) Anxious, restless, breathless. My chest is drowning in lava and my brain is covered by smoke. I can’t think straight, I can’t walk straight. I’m exhusted from too much human interaction. Stop pulling my eyelids. I don’t want to wake…